Over at the Sisterhood, we have decided that October is "I LOVE ME" month. We're all taking a pledge to love ourselves because as Christie O. says, "because it all starts with 'me'". She's right. It does. If you want to read and/or take the pledge, go here.

It has been a long and hard journey of learning to love myself. When I got my wake-up call and realized that I needed to lose weight, I had no idea how much my insides needed a wake-up call of their own.

There was always a part of me that I knew was awesome but I just couldn't bring myself to show my awesome to others. I was afraid of what they would think. I cared what they thought. I also got wrapped up in trying to please everyone. I wanted to be the person that could make people proud. I thought that if I didn't make them proud, I would bring shame to those I cared most about. I couldn't stand the thought of being THAT person. What I didn't realize was that in thinking that way, I lost a sense of myself that would make ME proud.

And wasn't that what was most important? Making myself proud?

Because if I couldn't be proud of myself, how could I make anyone else proud? If I couldn't love myself, how could anyone else love me?

I needed to make me happy.

I realized that in order to make myself happy, I had to discover who I really was. I needed to meet and get to know the real me. I had to learn that the real April was someone who I liked. When I realized how much I liked the real April, I began to show her to others. And holy crap! They liked her too.

You could say that on this road to self-discovery, I realized that I truly love who I am. Who I've become. Who I continue to become.

I know I will have moments of weakness. We all do. And that's okay. Because we'll just pick ourselves up, dust ourselves off, and love ourselves all over again.

Yep. This month, I'm taking the pledge. Will you?

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Anonymous said...

I will.

And you are awesome...

Bacardi Mama said...

I took the pledge and oh my God, you make me want to do this. Your post is amazing. Like Thea said, you are awesome!!

Brooke said...

of course other people love you - you're fantastic! :)

i'll be doing the pledge later in the week.

Jennie said...

What a fantastic idea! I think we're all too hard on ourselves sometimes...maybe most of the time.

PS: I also think you're awesome. :-)

Heather Anne said...

You're worth twelve (bazillion!) of Malfoy. :D

Christie O. said...

I love you. I'm so glad you see what everyone else sees and that's pure awesomeness. I LOVE THIS POST.

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