Reflecting

I've always wanted to be an author. (Pause. If I'm being honest, there are about 100 things I've always wanted to be. Artist, zookeeper, veterinarian, used bookstore owner, greenhouse owner...you name it, I've dreamed of doing it. Un-pause.) One day, I actually sat down and started a novel. (No, you can't read it.) What I found in my miserable attempt to write a novel was that I have great ideas, terrific beginnings, and wonderful endings. What I don't have is the talent to fill in the details.

A good and successful author has a gift to make his or her characters come to life. You feel like you're right there in the story, experiencing the adventure with the characters. I don't have that gift, and after many failed attempts at my novel, I knew that I just wasn't meant to be an author. I'm fine with it now. Mostly.

In May 2008, I started this blog. I was almost 30, and thanks to BFF Jessie she talked me into documenting my 30th year and my weight loss adventure. I posted 7 times from May through December 2008. I know, I rock.

Then in January 2009, I met Christy. (Stay tuned...there will be a post about that soon.) She talked me into restarting my blog.

What I discovered in 2009 is that I may not be an author, but I AM a writer. And I think that I'm pretty damn good at it. Writing here is like therapy to me. It's where I can come and say anything I want. It's where I let all of my feelings hang out. I think Jessie said it best when she said, I am most me on my blog.

What my self-therapy led me to was all of you. New friends whom I have grown to love so much. I never in a million years would have thought that anyone (but Jessie) would have wanted to read what I had to say. And not only did you read, but you gave support and helped me to see things in a way that I can't always see them by just arguing with myself. You've encouraged me to write more, which in turn helped me grow more as a person, helped me to discover more of who I am on the inside, helped me to love myself more, and helped me find peace.

And THAT'S what I love about 2009.

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10 comments:

Heather D said...

You are a fantastic writer. I am so blessed to have come across your blog and now am honored to be your friend!
xoxo

Mommy Mo said...

Keep writing my friend, and I will keep reading. And making you laugh : ).

Bacardi Mama said...

I agree with Lisa. You keep writing and I'll keep reading. I'm so happy and honored to have met you this past year. I hope that one day, I'll meet you and the rest of my "sisters" in person. Happy 2010 sweet friend!

Susanna... said...

thanks for stopping by! and you gave me insporation to blog too...I just started blogging again after a loooong hiatus, and hope to blog about my weight loss journey too. It's not the focus of my blog, but it's a big part of my life right now, so it'll be on there!

GOOD LUCK in 2010!!!

Amanda W said...

I am so glad to have met you and I am sort of struck by the chain of events that led to us hanging out in Lisa's kitchen one Fall night. Every decision was based on doing something good for yourself and your soul.
And I love that you are a sci fi geek like myself! Resistance IS futile! Now, if only I could swear in Chinese...

Lil' Summer said...

You have a wonderful gift as a writer. I am so glad to be apart of this challenge and meeting new people and learning more about them. Can't wait to continue reading your blog!

*Lissa* said...

Lovely post, hooker! I hope 2010 is even BETTER for you!

Midwest Mommy said...

Great post! Happy new year!

Crooked Eyebrow said...

You have a wonderful gift. and I hope 2010 is amazing

I love you and I wish you the best year ever!

~Mendie~ said...

I think that you are able to put into words what a lot of us can't...so please keep doing it! I wish you a happy and healthy 2010~you are such a cool lady!

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